All aboard my fucking speed train
I'm getting really really frustrated with myself. I feel like i'm either going at 300mph or i'm not going at all. For example today, even after having a lovely Friday wind down with friends, i've been eating shit, had a lie in, ate more shit and spent loads of money and ignored all the work I have to do. I know I have always struggled with getting the 'balance' and it takes me a long time to get it right during term time but it's doubly as hard during exam time.
I can't seem to maintain a sort of steady speed, i'm either giving everything my all, or i'm like fuck - no, good bye. It's so exhausting getting on and off this train, I just want to stay put. I probably keep jumping off because the 300mph is so unsustainable but gah, I have so much to be getting done and doing!!!!
This weekend, if nothing else - i'm going to be setting myself up for the week. I want meals prepped, clothes washed and ironed, I want it to be stress free in that sense. I'm going to be timetabling all my revision / commuting / fitness really well and accurately so that's also stress free. What I haven't done yet is schedule in some chill time, so i'm putting that as a priority on my to-do list, or I really will just never have it till i'm so overwhelmed and I have to take a day off. *bangs head on wall* I know I should be pre-empting this and getting in that self-love and self-care!
I can't seem to maintain a sort of steady speed, i'm either giving everything my all, or i'm like fuck - no, good bye. It's so exhausting getting on and off this train, I just want to stay put. I probably keep jumping off because the 300mph is so unsustainable but gah, I have so much to be getting done and doing!!!!
This weekend, if nothing else - i'm going to be setting myself up for the week. I want meals prepped, clothes washed and ironed, I want it to be stress free in that sense. I'm going to be timetabling all my revision / commuting / fitness really well and accurately so that's also stress free. What I haven't done yet is schedule in some chill time, so i'm putting that as a priority on my to-do list, or I really will just never have it till i'm so overwhelmed and I have to take a day off. *bangs head on wall* I know I should be pre-empting this and getting in that self-love and self-care!
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